Oh no, it’s not me, I just forgot to tell you.
Didn’t mean, it seems obscene. We just lost track along the way.

I’m Coming to Terms, I’m starting to learn;
This ain’t all it’s cracked up to be.
‘Cause I’m using you, you’re using me. It’s never as easy as we believe.

‘Cause this hurts, I can’t leave, I understand, but can you?
I’m just scared, you’re lonely… Everyone knows you’re better than me.

Is this what you need? Am I what you need?

I’m Coming to Terms, I’m starting to learn;
This ain’t all it’s cracked up to be.
‘Cause I’m using you, you’re using me,
It’s never as easy as we believe.

Oh no, it’s not me…
I just forgot to tell you,
We just lost track along the way.

There’s times I would have died for you. There’s times I would have laid down my entire life for you. There’s times I would have picked apart my brain for you. But now, things are different. You’re not my only light anymore, you don’t need me to stay alive. My existence isn’t crucial to how to live your life anymore. 

I told you I was hurt. I told you I was bleeding. I told you I would try to fix this mess. You took the high road out. An easy way to quit. After all this time, after all the calls when my blood turned into alcohol, we’ve both given up. I was wrong. I was wrong about you and you were wrong about me. There were times where no one else was good enough. But now there is enough, and we’ve both had it. I’m the mistake that you’ve found a way to live without. 

There’s times I would have died for you. There’s times you would have set yourself on fire just to guide me. But now, all that’s left are the pieces of what we used to be. Nothing else matters, there isn’t a right way out, our guiding light has grown weary and faint. Our last flame has drowned with us. 

-Mon Sept 10th,2012

Its a distant and lonesome cry
The blurred memories of short lived happiness
Hidden beneath an overdue sigh

Isn’t it enough to die while we’re still sane?